Without that vacation, I probably would have finished it all in one sitting with no interruptions and been up until the wee hours of the morning. While some might not see that as too impressive, it’s important to note that I was on vacation at the time, and yet I still crammed these episodes in when I had a beach resort around me to take up my time (I watched an episode at the poolside bar, okay? It was just that strong of a fixation!).
That was nine episodes in less than 24 hours. I started the first episode of Given on Friday night and finished the ninth episode midday on Saturday – the very next day. I consume every bit of it as rapidly as possible until it’s done and I don’t want to stop or slow down. My sleep schedule is routinely screwed up when this happens. Sometimes this continues even to my own detriment. When a fixation takes hold of me, it manifests as an inexplicable compulsion to just keep consuming this new thing until I’ve absorbed it all. This became my new shiny thing and it took hold of me. Once the episode was complete, however, I hit play on the next one. I had no idea that a fixation was on the horizon when I hit play on the first episode. To kind of give you an idea of how this starts, I watched the first episode of Given on Friday September 6th and I was expecting to go to bed shortly after. Or maybe I’ll just read one chapter of this manga and go to bed. Maybe I’ll just watch one episode of this show while I eat dinner, I tell myself. My fandom hyperfixation typically starts with watching or reading something in a way that at first feels casual. I never have and I’m not sure I ever will.
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I just don’t know how to consume things I love in a casual manner.
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And it’s still there waiting for the Yuri on Ice movie to get released before it comes back with a vengeance.īack and back it goes all the way to the beginning stages of my fandom life. And everyone who knows me even a little bit knows that Yuri on Ice had its hold in me for well over a year.
The current fixation is the anime show Given, but just a month ago I was drowning in Good Omens. This sort of hyperfixation has been a feature of my fandom life as far back as I can remember. Mafuyu from my current Hyperfixation: Given This is what I call a Fandom Hyperfixation. You ever suddenly obsess over one single piece of media for days, weeks, or maybe even months? You can’t talk about anything else except your new shiny fandom and suddenly its your whole world.
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